I attended swamiji’s NSP program in November 2009.During a meditation session, he wanted us to be with ultimate vitarka and do the maha mantra (“hmmm...”) meditation.
I was initially not able to control my mind into vitarka but I felt ripples of energy from swamiji flowing through me and in an instant I got vitarka and the awareness that I identified when the feeling of “me” was pulled into myself. It was like I –the being- am at the centre and at a distance from the ultimate me, I could see (my) body and understood that Nithyananda swamiji and I were the same. I also understood that the body is NOT me but mine. Only the sound “nithyanandam” was going through the ultimate me as an answer for whatever thoughts arised. I understood that the thoughts were NOT from me but the body and was flying across me up in the dark sky. When my body thought of Vaishnodevi temple, I answered “nithyanandam” with cosmic bliss, when my body thought of jwala mukhi temple; I answered “nithyanandam” with the same everlasting bliss. Even when my body worried whether this experience will soon be lost, I answered “nithyanandam”. I see the world in a different eye from then on. I even forgot how I used to see the world before this experience but i do know that I have changed a big way and have at last found me.
Once while doing the nithyadhyaan, I seemed to enter into a same situation but this time i understood that I am infinity but also nothing. I am bliss but also silence. I am both the extremes, like ying yang. These were some of the biggest experiences with swamiji.
Whatever might be the situation, Paramahamsa Sri Nithyananda is my guru!!! Nithyanandam!!!